a lesson learned

So I work in  a shoe store and this older lady was looking at boots and just trying them on. she was a very sweet old lady calling myself and my coworker "hun" This mother came in who was very urgent about buying a pair of shoes so she can be a gold member with us. Her two year old daughter went running off and stayed in the kids aisle. The mother was all done checking out and the daughter would not come. The mother then proceeds to yell at her daughter, "IF YOU DON'T GET OVER HERE NOW, I'M LEAVING AND THE COPS WILL GET YOU AND PUT YOU IN OCS, DO YOU WANT THAT?" The daughter then cries and runs to her mommy and they leave. It was very odd to think that a two year old knows about OCS. (office of child services) The older lady scoffed and said that the mother needs medical attention. The lady tells me that she lost her daughter when she wasn't too much older than the little girl that was just in here. I replied to her with sorrow and empathy, "I guess you don't know what you have until it's gone."

I learned later that day that I need to listen to my own proverb. I almost lost my beautiful wife. She didn't get into a life threatening situation or anything but I said something stupid. I said something that hurt her bad. I thought she was going to leave me. I didn't say something simple like accidentally call her fat, which she is anything but she is this little Filipina. I insulted her womanhood. I insulted her as my wife. I insulted myself for saying that to her. I don't think I have ever been so stupid in my entire life. I went through today not eating and drinking lots of water to calm down the butterflies in my tummy. She came and had lunch with me and I couldn't look at her with out having my eyes fill up with tears. She is the most beautiful thing on this earth I have ever seen. I have seen some pretty amazing stuff but nothing can compare to her. I feel guilty though, I hurt her bad. I hurt her and she is so prideful and bottled up that she won't talk to me about it. I guess that is her decision though not mine. If she wants to talk I'll be there for her.


She really is beautiful. I love bragging about her.

She's the beautiful one with the big lips and I'm the cheesy smile one.